03:47pm 08/11/2003
  dra
You are Form 5, Dragon: The Weaver.

"And The Dragon seperated the virtuous from
the sinful. He tore his eyes from his sockets
and used them to peer into the souls of those
on trial to make a judgement. He knew that
with endless knowledge came endless
responsibility."


Some examples of the Dragon Form are Athena
(Greek), St. Peter (Christian), and Surya
(Indian).
The Dragon is associated with the concept of
intelligence, the number 5, and the element of
wood.
His sign is the crescent moon.

As a member of Form 5, you are an intelligent and
wise individual. You weigh options by looking
at how logical they are and you know that while
there may not always be a right or wrong
choice, there is always a logical one. People
may say you are too indecisive, but it's only
because you want to do what's right. Dragons
are the best friends to have because they're
willing to learn.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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03:36pm 08/11/2003
  Now I realised why I stop posting in here.. fuckin everyones on livejournal..

http://www.livejournal.com/users/limboestme

read my shit there
 
     

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03:17am 08/11/2003
 
mood: cold
music: If You Come to Me - Atomic Kittens
I'm so fucking cold right now I don't even want to type.. michigan needs to drift to the equqator again
 
     

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01:42pm 02/11/2003
  I haven't written in here in forever.. fucking I think like a year ago almost.. DAMN

Anyway I'm fuckin jumping around on my extra bed on the floor all fierce and half naked.. MmM

p.S. Robbie is a hottie, licks lips..
 
     

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07:47pm 21/02/2003
 
mood: pensive
music: Clint breaking himself (aka cracking his joints)
Everytime your not training someone else is, and when the big race comes, dont be surprised...
 
     

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07:14pm 17/02/2003
 
mood: hopeful
"Hold on to me love
You know I can stay strong
All I wanted to say was
I love you and I'm not afraid..."

I'm not affraid... no longer sleeping to forget, i am sleeping to make the days spin till i'm with you again.
 
     

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01:03pm 16/02/2003
 
mood: depressed
music: Evanescence - My Immortal
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
 
     

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05:28am 15/02/2003
 
mood: hopeful
music: Norah Jones - Come Away With Me
When tears fill your eyes,
You struggle not to cry,
To smile because it happened,
Isn?t that right?
But it hurts to end,
To think when it started,
And it hurts to wish,
That it didn?t ever happen.
I am at a lose
Tell me what do I do
How do I go on living my life?
When I shaped it around you
I wish you were here
And in your arms you hold me
And it your heart I?m there
And in your eyes I'm all you see
Because to me that?s you
You?re all I think about
It?s you that makes me happy
That?s makes me smile so
I want to be with you
I want to touch your soft hair
And stare into your ever-changing eyes
Touch your lips to mine
And to always know
I?m in your arms
Safe from the world
All I need is you
And I know you need me too.
 
     

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03:23am 12/02/2003
 
mood: Always Turned On ;-)
music: The Radio
...Put it in my mouth, in my motha fuckin mouth...

!!!THE OLD ANDREW IS BACK!!!
 
     

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03:58am 11/02/2003
 
mood: anxious
It's sooo funny when stupid people try to out-smart smart people... it's like what the helll... ohhh you got me! WTF?!?!
Any way before i name names! well one name for instance, haha bitch you got denied! and you still dont have anyone to love.... stop pushing everyone away and you wont have a problem... just my opinion : P

Yeah so Clint and i are "freiends with benifits" yay! its funny because he said he likes me more and im just like ok... im in it for the freedom of ass! which let me tell you... IM BACK TO THE OLD ANDREW, who likes sex alot damnit! ; ) ...yeah so i already abused my powers he he shhhh! it doesnt take long for Andrew to get to his feet... not the opld Andrew anyway... and Clint did mention something about asking me ot possibly in like a month or two... we'll cross that bridge wen we ome to it
 
     

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02:10pm 09/02/2003
 
mood: bored
music: Perfect Circle... its on the radio
Sooo Bored!
 
     

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07:08pm 07/02/2003
 
mood: jubilant
STILL MONO-LICIOUS AT:
WEEK 1 OF 6 WEEKS
 
     

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07:06am 03/02/2003
 
mood: blank
music: ...I didn't know i made noises like that!
I have the worst luck ever... as soon as Clint and i were really getting closer to one another i got mono... and as much as i promised to not let it get me down... it does... i mean he even said, (which i swear to god was the sweatest thing!)"This is not going to change my feelings for you." Awwww, i know its sweat, and he cares for me, but what hurts the most is that i can't touch him, kiss him, hug him, or even come within a certian amount of feet from him with out worrying about getting him sick... The doctor did say that, the only thing that is contagious is my mouth, but i am soo affraid and paranoid to get him sick... i could never forgive myself... when he gets mono, hes gets it bad.... im only on it for 6 weeks im told.... he was on it for 8 months!
I mean as much as it sucks... i guess you could say that if it only lasts for 6 weeks or so... then maybe i am lucky enough to not have it so bad... thats nice to think about :)
How ever... lol... i still really badly want to kiss him and touch him, that will never change :P
anywho... day 5 of 6 weeks
 
     

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12:13pm 29/01/2003
 
mood: drained
Ugh... i have been so jeleous lately... i mean, i dont even get to be with anyone on Valentines day because they are going away with someone else... and i just get sooo jeleous and mad, am i just being controling or teritorial... maybe i have some reason to be... no, well maybe, well no... do you see my problem! And all this other person does is write and write and write on how they ove the poerson i do, and it bothers me sometimes, because it seems to get his attention more then anything ive said... i feel like when i say nice things it creeps him out... he said it didnt, but i feel other wise... there is nothing to be jeleous of that i know of and i dont think there ever will be, but i just get so jeleous... maybe its because i never see this person... and he thinks we see each other tooo much,once a week... is that too much?!?!? I just dont know anymore, everyone is telling me something different, and im just not listening to anyone anymore... he says he loves me, he syas he likes being with me and hanging out... so i am going on that, because i know feelings can be wrong... but sometimes i dont know if anyone takes my feelings into consideration, i mean no one realy knows how i feel about things, like when im not doing anything and they arent doing anything... and niether of us have plans... they still dont make the effort to hang out... ro even when i ask something like "what are you up to today" they think i am applying that i want to hang ouyt and they get all difensive... and that goes for everyone! im not pionting the finger at one person, because its all of you lately...
And i dont even want to say anything, but i know how someone types and talks to other people, and it makes me feel like sometimes they dont want me around... or maybe im just a choir to them... and yet again maybe im being paraniod, but it still bothers me... i feel loved, but not in a friend way... no body really ever asks me if they want to hang out or do something... its always me asking them... and then i get cancelled on:-[
sometimes i just want to sleep and pretend that im hanging out with my friends... or im being held by someone i love... or even i dream about being loved... but it hurts... it really hurts when i wake up... i know i am loved by one person who really matters, but i just dont feel the love anymore because no one else seems to be happy having me around :'(
i just want to be held...
 
     

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02:33pm 27/01/2003
 
mood: confused
music: Stroke 9 - Letters
Well that last one didnt work...

I think im affriad to write in here anymore just because i doint know anymore who reads it... becuase i have alot of things i like to say, but at what expense... making people pissed at me, well then fuck it all!
the only thing i can say is that i dont trust you... you know who you are... well no you dont, but i trust the one i love, but you however " "love" " the same person i do... and i sry but what we have is something i dont want to loose at all costs... i dont even want to loose what "we" have... friendship means alot to me too... are you even my friend or what?
???i dont even know anymore???
what happens down the road i cant control... but if something happens and your involved... i have gone through alot and i dont want to go through anything for a while... im happy, everyones happy.... just watch your actions... i will watch mine... and everyone can be happy for a long time!!!
 
     

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02:32pm 27/01/2003
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11:52am 25/01/2003
 
mood: satisfied
........:::::::::::everyone seems to be hurt:::::::::::.........

everyone seems to be hurt by someone or something and its all around saddedning, disheartening, and sometimes depporessing... i wish thsi was a perfect world... with perfect love and perfect trust... but things cant be perfect because thats just how life is... so you know what... we need to make the best of what is happeneing now... live in the present, love in the present, and be consummed in the present... because the past is behind you and getting stuck in the future means the present will pass you right by...

Clint spent the nihgt last night and we talked about things... though we have been talking about things for a long time lol, still we discussed what would happen to us when we didnt have time to be an us... and from the looks of it there will be nothing to regret and nothing to feel bad about... i think i will be happy for a long time... and its not going to be hard for either of us :-D

I have finaly reached a piont in my life where i have realised that everything is going to be just fine and everything is going to be ok... i belive now that everything is at a stand still and i am the bull and the matador... so no matter what happens i am in control :-) toro TORO!
 
     

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07:49am 22/01/2003
 
mood: accomplished
I think that i ave matured in the past few months... and the past few days have really sped up the process, the only thing i can say now is that it sucks to be hurt and yet sometimes we bring that hurt upon ourselves... Right now all i ask from people is understading and support and i have been getting that... thank you all for caring, but its going to be along time before i can do some of the things i used to, such as datting and seeing people... but thats something i have to get used to... i believe clint and i are .. at this piont... still "seeing" each other but we are slowly moving towrds friends, i think its what he really wanst and im going to do the same as sson as its possible for me to make sure i have everything in check,..,
I also want to say thank you to drew, because im sure he has had alot if not more to deal with between Clint and i, and he is such a strong suportive and great person... he diserves alot more credit then alot of people i know... thanx drew ;-)
And Clint... if you ever see this... I plan to be in your life anyway i can and i hope to see us 4-5-8 years down the road still hanging out and being there for each other, all i can do is let yuou know i will always be there for you and i will always love you, you have a place in my heart that can only be yours... :-*
 
     

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04:19pm 21/01/2003
 
mood: You dont care how I feel!!!
Im sry im annoying and obsesive and embarassing to be with...

i guess i never knew because i spent my time thinking about how YOU felt and how i could help YOU... maybe i should have giving some thought to how i feel... no on else seems to! and maybe I feel embarassed when I cant even kiss someone I'M suposedly "seeing" around other people... because they dont want people to get the idea that we are "datting", i guess "seeing" each other is for sercrecy and for closed doors, im sry i missed the memo...
Thanx for making me look nieve, i do try and make you look bad... all the time, havent you noticed!!
and another thing... All of you out there, be honest with me, because if you arent i get pissed and i will never be able to trust you again... and p.s. Clint is not my obsession, and thanx for making him feel like im nothing more then a stalker, i appreciate your maturity on this whole subject...
!!!!!!!!!!LOTS OF LOVE!!!!!!!!!! ANDREW
 
     

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09:55am 21/01/2003
 
mood: bouncy
Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint Clint it's not an obsession... its a hobby lol ;-P
 
     

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